I understand battered spouse syndrome a bit more this week. My principal announced that she is leaving and going to another school. The first thing I felt was relief. Then, I began to wonder if I should transfer schools with her..WHAT??? I have spent the whole school year wondering what I got myself in to, taking this job, and now, I see my chance at freedom, and I think about giving that up??? Wives stay with their abusive husbands because it is better than the unknown. They may be physically, verbally and/or emotionally abused, but they stay. Why? Because at least they know what to expect. She may have verbally and emotionally abused me but what if the next person is worse? What if the next person tries just a little bit harder at the whole spirit breaking thing? Could I take it? Do I stay with what I know?
This is how I found myself feeling yesterday afternoon. She is leaving? Wonderful! Take a breath, and then...should I go too? I must be crazy.
I have decided that the Lord has answered prayers. I enjoy change, thrive on it. I love a challenge, something different. I will stay. God will provide the best person for the job, and I will have a great school year with a whole new crew of 10 and 11 year olds (and some 12 year olds :-)
I have been blessed with a wonderful assistant. Ms. Miller. She prayers for me and for our school on a regular basis. Give that up to follow and abusive husband? I think not.
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Erin, I am so proud of you with the manner in which you have faced this difficulty your first school year and reading your thought process of dealing with your principal leaving. What a joy to read about your assistant, Mrs. Miller. I join her in praying for the next Silver Valley principal. Dad sure enjoyed you call today. Love, Mom
Mom wrote the first comment but had to sign in under my name! You HAVE been a busy writer. And you're writing well because you make a good point and tell it interestingly with good use of language. Of course, since it is about you, I would be interested even if it was lousy...but it's good. keep it up.
Dad
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