Kickin' It

I went for a walk today and I think that our sweet baby boy fetus must have either really enjoyed it, or really hated it. He is moving like crazy. Believe me, I know gas and this is not it. It feels like he is kicking or pushing toward the outside right below my belly button. I told him he has to wait awhile. He cannot come out yet. There has been a lot of excitement this weekend. Maybe he can feel that. We went and registered last night. Who knew that there was so much baby stuff. Wipe warmer? Are you kidding me? Please do not get us a wipe warmer. I know that my rear was wiped with cold wipes and I think everything turned out just fine. We left the store feeling excited and exhausted. I think that our little boy knows there is a lot going on out here and he is making himself known. He wants to be a part of things.
I cannot wait. I cannot wait to hold this beautiful baby in my arms. This baby that has been growing inside me; I can't wait to actually be able to touch him.
Be patient, the doctor said in the next month people on the "outside" will be able to feel him also.
God is so good.

To Penis or not to Penis

WE ARE HAVING A BOY!! There is no doubt about it. We saw a penis. We are so excited. Don't ask about the name. We are not telling. We want you all to have at least on surprise. Saturday we are going to register. I finally get to pick out bedding and start planning the nursery and all that. Those of you that have been dying to by gifts can now run out and do just that. Just don't get pink. Thank you all for your prayers. Keep 'em coming.

Excitement = No sleep

So, it is 11:00 Wednesday night, August 20th, and I cannot sleep. Tomorrow we find out if we are having a boy or a girl. I am completely aware that staying awake is not going to affect the outcome whatsoever. I am totally aware that no matter how much I think about it, I still will not know until 1:30 tomorrow, but I simply cannot sleep. I am playing in my head all the different scenarios. If it is a boy, then the nursery will look a certain way, and if it is a girl, then I need to change some things. What about names? We can actually pick a name after tomorrow. That is so amazing. Don't get too excited though because we are not telling anyone the name. There have to be some surprises you know. This weekend we are going to register for baby stuff. We will be at Target and Babies R Us. I am really looking forward to this and completely dreading it at the same time. I don't know what babies need. I have never been a mom before. I know that diaper warmers are a waste of money and help to breed bacteria...handy little fact I have picked up somewhere. I know that just because the baby people manufacture it does not mean I need to buy it, but what do I buy? How many bottle do I need. I have to have a "boppy". This is what I have been told. That will be number one on the registry. Do I register for every single thing that I want for the baby and for the nursery? Good grief, why does my mother have to live an hour and a half a way? So, say a little prayer for us. Tomorrow we find out whether or not this fetus has a penis and Saturday night we scan for diapers. We love you all!

Heartbeat

I thought since this was the second time I would get to hear the baby's heartbeat, it wouldn't affect me as much. Boy was I wrong. Benji didn't come to this appointment. We knew that it would be pretty quick, just a check up, but as I was laying on the table hearing our baby's heartbeat, I couldn't help but wish terribly that he was there. It was amazing. My doctor didn't show up this morning. She was at the hospital delivering a baby, so the nurse did all my measurements and such. I am almost relieved. The nurse was amazing. She was so excited for me. She talked about it being my first child and how I must be thrilled. She didn't act like one of those people that had been doing her job so long that it wasn't amazing anymore. That is a precious gift. She put the freezing cold gel on the tip of the monitor and put it on my stomach. I was given what has come to be the typical warning, "Don't worry if we don't hear it right away, the baby is still very small." Then, before she put the period at the end of her sentence, there it was. It was so loud and so strong. It was amazing. I lay on the table with tears streaming down the sides of my face. It as fabulous! A miracle, a blessing. I have my ultrasound appointment next week, and we will find out if we are going to have a baby girl or boy. It is amazing what technology we have, that these machines can see inside my body and tell me what I otherwise would not know for 5 more months. Keep us in your prayers. We cannot wait to be parents.