Heartbeat

I thought since this was the second time I would get to hear the baby's heartbeat, it wouldn't affect me as much. Boy was I wrong. Benji didn't come to this appointment. We knew that it would be pretty quick, just a check up, but as I was laying on the table hearing our baby's heartbeat, I couldn't help but wish terribly that he was there. It was amazing. My doctor didn't show up this morning. She was at the hospital delivering a baby, so the nurse did all my measurements and such. I am almost relieved. The nurse was amazing. She was so excited for me. She talked about it being my first child and how I must be thrilled. She didn't act like one of those people that had been doing her job so long that it wasn't amazing anymore. That is a precious gift. She put the freezing cold gel on the tip of the monitor and put it on my stomach. I was given what has come to be the typical warning, "Don't worry if we don't hear it right away, the baby is still very small." Then, before she put the period at the end of her sentence, there it was. It was so loud and so strong. It was amazing. I lay on the table with tears streaming down the sides of my face. It as fabulous! A miracle, a blessing. I have my ultrasound appointment next week, and we will find out if we are going to have a baby girl or boy. It is amazing what technology we have, that these machines can see inside my body and tell me what I otherwise would not know for 5 more months. Keep us in your prayers. We cannot wait to be parents.