Parasite

It is an odd feeling, this whole thing of my body not being my own anymore. Don't get me wrong. I am so excited, so blessed and amazed by what God is doing, but there are days I want my body back. I don't even poop the same anymore. :-) My boobs hurt, my back is aching, I have heartburn all the time, and I cannot ever seem to decide what I want to eat. I just know I NEED FOOD. I have often described what I am going through right now in terms of host body and parasite. I have this little parasite in my belly, living off of whatever it can extract from me. It is getting all of its support from ME! from what I am putting in my body and from how I choose to spend my day. This is why it amazes me when people say "well, you don't really have to give up__________." Or you can still have alcohol...in moderation." ARE YOU SERIOUS? People are complete idiots. God has given Benji and I this amazing blessing. Would I not be crazy to jeopardize this little life in me? Would I not be a fool to disregard warnings. Shouldn't I be doing everything that is in my power to take care of myself and my little parasite? ABSOLUTELY! Mothers-to-be wisen up. You decided to have a kid now take responsibility for it, and if you didn't make the conscious decision, tough, you opened you legs. Deal with it. Grow up!